Black darkness swallows whole my innards –
this life of flowers and bees and persimmon trees –
constantly adorned by bluest sky and puff puff clouds –
with rolling waters so cool and clear –
sighting God’s love far but yet near.

And we, those cast from heaven,
to walk the soil of years’ past shit.
To toil and grasp hands in filth,
to plant a seed of new life born.
And sprouting from this cesspool death,
is God’s beauty beyond the norm.
A green leaf pops up through,
and we attend our Sunday pew –
to give thanks for life come anew –
and sustenance which we can chew.

Oh God, oh God, your plan is clear –
that we be damned year by year –
sentenced to hunger and pain of life,
suffering intolerance and radical strife,
to bring a war – to bring the blood –
to kill a man for words lacking love.

Am I Cain or am I Able?
Living for love or for the sabre?
To which of these do I owe my fate
– being destined to walk upon this earth?
If Cain were sentenced here –
this life of toil and crime –
it would certainly make sense –
But why Dear God did Able come –
What was his offense?

If misery could be given a name,
I would call it Life.
As the only relief that I can find,
is my dearly beloved wife.

Thank you for the most wonderful thing I know.

White Cops and Black Robbers

God wants us to be happy.  And for the better part, most of us are happy most of the time.  At least those of us snuggled in our air conditioned homes with refrigerators are full of food – yeah, we are mostly happy.

When are we unhappy?  When our child gets lost in the mall and we are scared to death?  When a loved one passes away and we are in horrible mourning?  When we are in imminent danger of dying ourselves, like during a heart attack?  Or when someone has accosted or robbed us?  That’s when we usually call to God, in that moment of grief.  In other words, the only time God hears from most of us is when the shit hits the fan.

Cops are like that too.  They only get called upon when the shit is hitting the fan.  And when they respond they have no idea of what the situation is.  It could be a simple yelling match between a man and wife or an active shooter scene.  The police officer has no idea.  He has to assess the scene in a matter of mere seconds.  Which is why the police officer is given the authority to instruct people at scenes.  Disobeying the police officer is not just illegal, but it is a huge marker showing that the non-compliant person is probably going to become violent.  And when he shows signs of violence the use of force continuum goes into effect.

Most people do not know about the use of force continuum.  That is the practice that allows the officer to use one step higher force than the force an offender is using.  If an offender is acting belligerent then the officer may handcuff him.  If he resists being handcuffed and fights the officer, the officer may use non-lethal force such as pepper spray, baton, or Tasers to incapacitate the offender.  If the offender approaches an officer with a knife or other deadly weapon then the officer may resort to the highest level of force, deadly force.  That would include shooting the suspect until the threat has ceased.  Among other things.  Like choking or hitting ther offender in the head with a baton.  When deadly force is in play, and the officer is in fear of his own life or someone elses, he may use any force necessary to stop the threat.

Most of us go to our little cubicles or non-dangerous jobs everyday and don’t have to think about the things that police officers do.  They don’t go to homes like OJ Simpson’s to socialize and have hoighty-toity parties.  They go there because he just brutally murdered two people.  Police officers only see the worst of the worst of our society, and those who have never been an officer have no idea how incredibly terribly heinous these offenders are.

Here’s some stats:  According to the DOJ stats for 2012-2013, white violent offenders committed only 3.6% of their crimes against black victims.  That does not show any kind of a trend toward white racist murders in our country.  The number of white police officers who actually did commit murder against black victims is far below 3.6%, which tells me that the selection process for police officers is working.

Alternatively, violent black offenders committed over 40% of their crimes against other blacks, while simultaneously committing another 38% against white victims.  What does that say?  I don’t even know how to compute that except to say race doesn’t matter to them either – but they are far more prone to commit crime.

In fact although the black population in America comprises only about 20% of the population, 60% of all prisoners are black.  We can pussyfoot around and say this or that, their childhood was horrible, they never had a chance because the “man” held them down, or white people are racists and that’s why more black people get put in prison.  Or we can be honest and say that these black offenders grew up without fathers and have no sense of right and wrong.

When I hear Democrats like Hillary Clinton and Barrack Obama blame white police officers for shooting black offenders I just want to puke.  They are pandering for black votes.  And after 40 years of having the black vote, black repression has never been greater.  The Democratic party has never done anything for black Americans except tell them the other guy hates them.    78% of black children born in Chicago since 2003 were born to single women.  That is the President’s home town.  Is that how they are taking care of blacks?  Is that how “black leaders” are leading black families?

It doesn’t sound like leading to me.  It sounds like absolute chaos.  And when I hear BLM members shout “Kill Whitey” during a riot where a black officer killed an armed black suspect – it only confirms to me that chaos is the order of the Democratic way.

Stop throwing law and order under the bus for votes.

New DOJ Statistics on Race and Violent Crime

An “H” Food for Sweetie

Hominy bibbidy bobbidy –
Hominy bibbidy boo –
If I had a nickel –
I’d spend it all on you!
And if that nickel could buy a kite,
I’d fly it just as high –
as you make me feel –
each and every night –
So here is some hominy,
my bibbidy bibbidy boo –
I don’t really like it –
so I’ll save it all for you….
And if you need an “H” food,
to put across your lips,
I might suggest some hummus,
’cause it’s really good with chips!
Perhaps some ham covered in honey,
or halibut with horseradish sauce –
could complete an “H” food melody –
That could easily make you floss….
Hamburgers, headcheese,
hearts and pickled heels,
herbs and huckleberries,
heros and banana peels!
Bananas don’t rhyme.
They don’t have too.
They’re better than everything except the hamburger.
Bananas should be an “H” food.

Immigrants Are Good For Us

Immigrants are good for the United States.  Population, family size, and social nets are the reason.  To put it into context we need to look at the historical evolution of the American family.

From 1790 to 1955 U.S. Family sizes – or number of residents in any given home – were predominantly from 4 to 7 persons (or more).  Then there was a shift in 1955.  Since that year the predominant family size has been only 2  persons.  Why the change?  The most popular belief is that social networks like Medicare and Social Security (instituted in the 1940s) are the reason our family size has decreased.   We no longer need to house Grandma and Grandpa in the spare bedroom.  They can now afford to live comfortably in retirement communities or nursing homes.

Also the number of children in any given family has decreased.    The actual number of births peaked in 1957 with an average of 3.77 children per family.  In 1965 a whopping 4 out of 10 Americans were under the age of twenty.  But today the average number of children per family is hovering slightly above 1.5 children.

But how does that relate to today’s immigrants being good for us?

The answer is very simple math.  All social nets in America are a numbers game.  The more pay-ers you have – the more pay-ees you can afford and also the systems can give more quality care.  When family size decreases so too does the number of pay-ers.  It’s not rocket science.

With a decreasing population we are facing a bankruptcy in the social net systems.  The influx of workers from Mexico and elsewhere is exactly what we need to keep the status quo.  Which is what we Americans have become accustomed to doing, isn’t it?  Living life large?  Even if it means going into substantial debt?

Immigrants are a necessary part of the status quo.  So either give up the status quo and finally pay your share, or stop complaining about it.  The immigration problem will never go away because they are needed, no matter what issues the politicians thump their speeches with.    And amnesty for immigrants to become paying members of our system will always be necessary too.

All arguments to the system are simply red herrings.  Let’s debate the real issues and not get sidetracked by things like immigration.


Americans’ ideal family size is smaller than it used to be

That’ll Do Pig

One of my favorite lines ever comes from a children’s movie called “Babe,” where a farmer was blessed beyond any account with the most amazing little pig named Babe.  This pig did something so dear to the farmer’s heart that it made the farmer  happier and more proud than he had ever been before in his entire life.  After the pig completed this task the farmer was so overwhelmed that the only words that could come to his otherwise silent world was “That’ll do pig.”

And Babe knew that was the greatest compliment one could ever receive from the farmer.  (Though out of context it would seem a little rude.)

My lovely wife Teresa wrote a poem for me the other day and it got me thinking – how could I – in my weird writing style – give her the greatest compliment I can think of?  It was a no brainer.  I barely remember the world before Teresa and think that I have never been happier. So this is installment one of what I consider the rest of my life:

Against the meadow green stood the bull fervent gray –
Snorting his clouds of puff and doom –
Yet another winter has come to stay
as he assessed his daily gloom…

Slowly he watched the sun go down,
feeling his aged plight.
forgetting dawn would come around,
leaving him forever night.

And so lament became his way,
knowing his mind is set –
expecting nothing from this fray –
that he couldn’t just forget.

For years he tried to make such sense –
but found to no avail –
still stuck in this barbed wire fence,
with his lone struck heart a-wail…

“Why dear God, is this my fate?”
He cried up to the moon.
“That life should begin so late –
with mine but a lonely croon?”

But then sun broke sky on eastern wall,
and suddenly he could see –
that a lovely vision through it all –
had stood by his knee.

“What such loveliness this?”
he asked, with patience in his eyes.
“It is I!” cried dear miss –
to his great surprise!

“But why are you here?”
he asked through his heart…
Not knowing or thinking
they’d ever been apart..

“Why would you stand by me,
with nothing more than what I be?”
She just shook her head and then she said
“Because I love you silly!”

So now the bull can’t remember when
he was ever left alone.
For within her eyes and precious touch
was the true essence of home!

In that pasture through ensuing years,
no matter how small or big –
It could often be heard on quiet nights –
“That’ll do, my little pig!”

I love you Teresa…..


Killing Our Police

Alton Sterling, the 31 year old black man who was shot dead in Baton Rouge on July 5th this year by police, was brandishing a firearm weapon at passersby only moments before his death.  One of the passersby, a homeless man, called police and  reported that Sterling was brandishing a firearm at him in front of a convenience food mart.  That is all the responding officers knew about the person they were responding to:  He was armed and possibly dangerous, having brandished his deadly weapon at passersby.

The rest remains for a review board, prosecutor,  and possible jury to decide.  Politicians began scrambling, carefully choosing their words so as not to incite further resentment or riots in Baton Rouge.  Their assurances that indeed there are underlying race issues in our country only fueled the maniac Gavin Eugene Long, the 29 year old self-appointed activist who felt that he, himself, was the review board, judge and jury and took it upon himself to murder innocent police officers in retaliation.

The time has come to stop the rhetoric.  That’s what President Obama told the nation yesterday in light of the melee in Baton Rouge.  Only President Obama was not talking about the rhetoric that fueled this arrogant, completely malicious attack.  He was talking about the rhetoric surrounding the reaction to what Gavin Eugene Long did.  Of course he doesn’t want a race war on his hands as the first black president.  And he is absolutely right in wanting to keep the peace.  But I want to know why the other rhetoric was not stopped.  When the media and politicians jump out and speak about something as volatile as white police officers killing black men because we “obviously still have a race problem” in our country.  That is the rhetoric that should have been stopped, and I’ve been crying that from the rooftops for a decade now.

The only race problem in our country lives in the hearts and minds of racists.   The time has come to stop that rhetoric.  That is what is causing division in our country and frankly I am an American who is willing to stand up and say enough is enough.

I am also a near 30 year veteran in law enforcement who can honestly say unequivocally that at no time in my career have I seen any racist acts conducted by fellow officers.  And I do not claim all officers are worthy of wearing the badge.  I’ve worked along officers who have been convicted of crimes like murder, robbery, kidnapping.  There have been officers in our nation convicted of child molesting and child pornography.  I personally have worked alongside officers that were completely intolerant of my gay/lesbian fellow officers and politely offered to kick their asses for such hatred.  I have put my reputation as an officer and human being on the line to put these misaligned people in the proper perspective and I would do it again.  I have known racist officers.  And in every breath I take I will admit that some officers fall through the cracks in the hiring process.  I know this.

But at no time during my career have I ever seen any officer ACT against another person because of race.  Even after viewing the videotapes on the news, internet, and every possible venue imaginable where it clearly shows white officers murdering black people – undoubtedly – (and yes, these are without doubt murder cases clearly when officers shoot fleeing suspects in the back or shoot them in the head while attempting to drive away) even in those cases I’m not convinced that race is the reason those officers overreacted.  Were these cases murder?  Undoubtedly to me as a veteran.  But there is no clear evidence that race was the factor.  In all cases the officers feared for their lives and made absolutely wrong decisions in their heightened states.  And in all those cases the review and criminal justice system puts these officers on trial for what they did.  And correctly so.  But that doesn’t mean race was the motive.

But who decides that?  Me?  Of course not.  Gavin Eugene Long?  member of the Nation of Islam?  Noted hater of whites and police and who openly defies our system of government in twitter, YouTube, and other venues?  Of course not.  He is not judge and jury.  And neither are any of us.

So I agree with our President and think it is high time we stop the rhetoric.  But I also think that we Americans need to stand up and say enough is enough.  We are not going to allow our officers to be slaughtered on the streets because of the propagandized, politicized notion that white people are out to kill black people.  That is absolutely not true and we need those asserters of that idea to quell their rhetoric before other haters brew the idea into their own killing plans.  The first amendment does not cover yelling “Fire!” falsely in a crowded theater.  And that is exactly what is happening here.  It is time to put a stop to it.



The Mob Killed Kennedy

Following is the conclusion I have come to concerning the assassination of John F. Kennedy.

The mob killed Kennedy.  Specifically Marcello and Traficante through corroboration with Giancana.  They accomplished this with the help of unknowing and knowing rogue CIA agents and operatives.

There was an ongoing coalition between mobsters and the CIA prior to Kennedy’s assassination.  Our government routinely kills people in the name of our national interest, but this is all clandestine.  The agreement between the mob and CIA was that all murders within the US would be conducted by mob men, and all foreign murders and assassinations would be carried out by trained military assassins.  This is now known fact.  Having the mob commit interior murders somehow made American leaders feel sheltered from the notion that they themselves were killing Americans on American soil – an absolute no-no.  But ordering the mob to do it did not truly lighten their culpability.

Lee Harvey Oswald was a CIA operative who was recruited out of the Marines to try and get intelligence from within Russia.  Russian leaders were skeptical at that time and aware that our government was sending people over to “defect” in order to spy on them.  They did not allow Oswald to get in any position that would enable him to report on any government interests or programs.  They did not trust him.  After the fall of the USSR records were found that established this.  They had done an investigation on Oswald to discern his ability to spy for them and found that he was not competent enough.  They  then started the process of deporting Lee but Lee’s feigned suicide attempt made them reconsider and they gave him a workers job.  After it became apparent Lee would not ever be in a position to get Russian secrets he returned to the US.

Upon returning to the states Oswald became useful to the CIA because he had ties to the Marcello mob in New Orleans.  He became a low level gopher there and reported to his one time associate and lover Judyth Vary Baker that he was “on loan” to the CIA.  Because the mob and CIA were working together on clandestine operations Oswald became like a permanent operative for the CIA.  You can find massive and overwhelming evidence of this in Judyth’s book, Me and Lee.

When Kennedy became elected it was apparent to him that his CIA director, Dulles, was not acting in his best interest.  After the bay of pigs fiasco Kennedy fired Dulles, who became disgruntled.  Dulles continued working through Colson, deputy director of the CIA, and continued certain clandestine operations without the Kennedy’s knowledge.  Kennedy felt the CIA had gone rogue and enlisted the help of his brother, Bobby, to help oust the problem.  As attorney general Bobby was trying to subversively get information on the rogue CIA members and also continue work on killing Fidel Castro in a way that would leave the world believing it was natural causes.  Bobby set up a secret investigation through his own office as Attorney General to accomplish these tasks.

Unfortunately the CIA and mob circles were too great and subsequently discovered the Kennedy’s attempt to destroy them.  They learned that the Kennedys had enlisted many operatives to keep them updated on what the CIA and mob were doing.  One of these operatives was Lee Oswald.  The mob learned of Lee’s coalition and felt betrayed, as though retting on them.  Lee’s family had had New Orleans connections with the mob long before he was born, so he was seen as an insider to them.  Having him work with the Kennedy’s against them was like betrayal.

The Kennedy’s were also enlisting operatives to go to Cuba and become intelligence officers, giving them the much needed intelligence they needed to carry out covert ops against Castro.   That is why Oswald went to the Cuban Embassy in Mexico City to obtain a Cuban Visa.  After being arrested in Dallas he was confronted by the FBI on his trip to the Cuban Embassy and he became agitated.  He asked “How did you know about that?”  I believe he was concerned because he believed that only the Kennedy circle knew about it, and not the CIA or mob.  I think that is when Lee pieced it together that the mob had found out about his work with the Kennedy’s and that is why he was set up as a patsy on the President’s execution.

So in short the mob killed Kennedy, repaid Oswald for his ratting them out, and forced Bobby Kennedy and others to cover up the assassination in order to hide the governments covert ops between the CIA and the mob, and more importantly, the attempts to kill Castro.  Bobby Kennedy knew Lee Oswald and also knew that Lee did not kill his brother.  I’m certain he ran for president a few years later to make amends for all of that.  And I’m certain his death was the result of the same players who would not let that happen.

If the government had killed JFK then I would be angry.  And because they covered it up I think many people mistakenly believed that they did kill him.  But I’m certain they didn’t – except for rogue members – to which I include Closson and Dulles.  Perhaps LBJ to a lesser degree, because I think he was aware of it but did not plan the assassination.  He had no choice but to follow along because they would have killed him too.  That’s why he ducked to the floorboard when the motorcade turned on to Elm Street.  He wasn’t sure if he would die also or not.  Amazing how the cowardous, belligerent LBJ allowed his wife to ride that motorcade seated right next to him not knowing if bullets would be fired at them or not.  Oh my, what a loving husband.

In any event the mob (with the help of rogue govt. operatives) killed Kennedy and government hid it from the public only to hide their association with the mob and other clandestine assassinations.  Sad, sad, sad.

Does our government have the right to carry out clandestine murders and assassinations?  I believe yes, it is a necessary evil.  Would the American public understand if it brought this reality to true light?  Maybe.  But the rest of the world would not.

So I think things like this should be hidden.

But not those clandestine murders that happen when the only benefit is to the careers or positions of individual politicians.  Those people will go to hell.  And it should be brought to light.  I don’t care if that happens on or before judgment day.

Personally, I think we should let the assassination rest.

Interesting to note is that after the Kennedy assassination use of the mob for CIA directed assassinations on American soil ended, or was at least suspended because it is now recorded that as early as 1964 military assassins were approached to perform assassinations in the US.

For any and all information I used to come to the above conclusion, please read Judyth Vary Baker’s book Me and Lee, and watch the history channel’s 8 part documentary titled “The Me Who killed Kennedy.”  They can be found in several places on YouTube.

Although Judyth is a very intelligent and apparently loving person, I think she was completely naïve of what was actually happening but interestingly her book corroborates a lot of the things taking place in furtherance of the setting up of Oswald as a patsy.

Finally, Oswald loved the Kennedy’s and I think it was because he had personally met them or spoken with them.  That’s only my personal belief.  I believe Lee Oswald is an American hero that was defamed by evil forces.