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Did We Say Goodbye

Did we ever say goodby?
Or did we just walk away?
Like nothing really matters
to our hearts anyway?
I’ll pretend if you’d like me too
Pretend that I just don’t feel the pain
But honey, I feel the same.

I’ll be walking down the street
just thinking about my feet
But not about you, no no
I suppose that’s the way it’s got to be

But every once in a while
I catch a glimpse of myself
alone, all alone, in the windowpane.
That’s when I think about you, again.

And I think…

Did we ever say goodby?
Or did we just walk away?
Like nothing really matters
to our hearts anyway?
If you need me to I’ll pretend
I don’t feel the pain
But darling, I do.

There’s just one thing
you gotta know my heart sings
yeah, ’cause I love you
Yes I do.
I love you.

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© 2015 John Allen Richter
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Loveless

I searched and searched – never found it there …
Hiding ‘midst my drowning loneliness – despair –
believing not my heart – more that somewhere
lived a part of my soul less burdened – less aware.

And lo – never finding itself within –
lurking deeply – hidden – like sin –
announcing only loves’ absence begins
to darken my souls’ longing – tip to brim.

She filled my empty space a moment or two –
until realizing it wasn’t true – her love –
or attempt to feign that which can not –
nor may ever be manufactured by whim.

Love is like a rose – nature’s surprise –
Which either is – or isn’t.
Pity we who can only see –
but never smell it’s truest beauty –

Or to bloody ourselves upon it’s stem
while others drink its petals’ dew…
If only I could have found that for you….
My dear lost darling, love is but a ruse.

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© 2015 John Allen Richter
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Empty Years

Hi, thanks for visiting my blog.  I hope you won’t mind if I “wax a little melancholy” for just a moment.  I’m certain this date has some significance to me, but I’m afraid I haven’t yet understood it fully.

I have been married for 27 years.  A few moments ago I signed the final decree of our divorce.  And I wonder, “What’s left of these 27 years?”  Besides my children, I can’t think of a single thing that was accomplished during those years.  They are lost, dried up like leaves in the fall, and blown away.

Following is the only emotions I have today……  of course, in rhyme……

P.S.  I apologize again for the lengthy monologue here….  Open Link night is not a good night to stretch the blog but it occurred to me after reading some thoughts left by friends that this poem probably needs a little introduction.  I chose to honor Rupert Brooke in this poem because he is a deeply emotional and lovely poet who died at the age of 27.  And the poem itself – although misleading – is really about what can be accomplished in a 27 year period….  It’s not about divorce, or sadness, or drugs or death.  I know that few readers today will know who Rupert is, however.  I only know of him because I am a staunch history and war buff.  Rupert became famous for his poems depicting WWI as he viewed it from the front lines.  So I thought more people would clue into the 27 year theme by adding Hendricks and Joplin, who more famously also died at the age of 27.  I admire them all greatly.  It is truly sad that artists have personalities that tend to overindulge everything in life, including drugs and alcohol when they travel that path.  But this poem does not celebrate their deaths.  It celebrates their lives and all they have given to the rest of us.    I hope you will please know that all my poems come from deep within my emotions.  What may seem sad to you is actually the color of my life…..  I am not sad.   Please, enjoy my poem for what it is.  It was not intended to be about the writer, but no piece of art is complete without the mark of it’s creator.  Every Picasso painting you ever see will have it’s roots in some of the deepest emotions probably endured by any human…..  The topic or subject of a piece of art is that which is depicted.  The emotions, feelings, visions, and senses of the artist are only what makes it unique….. 

You’re friend, John
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Empty Years
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How can a thing live and thrive
that such great love would strive
within years of twenty and seven?

That a whole life could pass
and a man’s mark should last
beyond his entrance to Heaven?

Rupert Brooke should know,
as he penned his last or so,
as Death’s angels called his name.

Hendrix died so long ago
and Joplin we are told
relinquished her earthly fame.

What sights those eyes had seen
before death came between
young souls and all the world.

Greater feats had never been
that memories last within
our hearts and souls to share.

And what of my last?
These twenty seven past?
Has my mark been left at all?

A time others could make great
could leave my solemn fate
with nothing but this listless scrawl.

Dried leaves, blown away, in the fall.
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by John Allen Richter
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These hearts were woven of human joys and cares,
Washed marvellously with sorrow, swift to mirth.
The years had given them kindness. Dawn was theirs,
And sunset, and the colours of the earth.
These had seen movement, and heard music; known
Slumber and waking; loved; gone proudly friended;
Felt the quick stir of wonder; sat alone;
Touched flowers and furs and cheeks. All this is ended.

The Dead, by Rupert Brooke

© 2012 John Richter